Sterling leaned forward, his hand to his brow in support. He could not bare to look at her. He never desired to make her feel so and yet, what had passed between them, still counciled him againt a third attempt to marry her... besides, he believed his heart was telling him to take another path.
"Lilly, please, do not do this," he whispered. "If you like I shall believe you that you never meant to do me wrong, but because your words said differently in the past, I am not willing now to yield further in our relationship. There is another woman that holds fast mine affections and she has, so far, done everything to show me that she does honestly care for me... ME! Not my money, possessions, power or influence. Just me and all my misreable failures. Curse me if you wish, but this is my choice, I plan to see it through!"
He stopped and lay heavily back into the bedding, alarmed that he had raised his voice to her at the last.
"I am sorry," he said, calming himself. "I do not wish to cut you off completely...tis that we no longer can be lovers. I am here for you if you need me... I wish it could be amicable between us."