The Gentleman Pirate
By: Christina Carr
I began my days, in the courts
Structure and control, my only resort
I wore the clothing they told me to wear
I held a status none could compare
Then you, dear uncle, destroyed my life
Took away my strength, status and rights
My parents gone I had only you
And I truly thought you'd see me through
I gave you love, as much as I could
In trade you'd support me, like you should
But no, it was never meant to be
That loved noble inside of me
You tried to kill me and beat me down
You made sure I would not be around
And just as you thought you had won
Your back was turned, your deeds undone
Your problem is, oh blood of mine
You thought you'd won but given much time
You let me breathe by dismissing me
I hated it but you set me free
Your confidence, your smug power
Your thoughts of success, feeding the hours
You thought I could never survive
Bugs you placed in the fellows inside
Years separated from courts and love
From images of lions and turtle doves
The structure removed in pain and hurt
There were days I thought nothing worse
Then they came, pirates so bold
Limping away from silver and gold
They had lost their fight yet once again
To my prison island, without a win
They took me in, oh blood of mine
I shared my knowledge and in time
They found in me a captain not shown
They found in me a way to grow
I know your ships, your paths and law
I know from inside, your structure, your claws
I know where you will strike and all your friends
Will eventually turn on you, in the end
But now I sit, looking over the bow
The time you have spent was not spent well
You have wasted away on bitter thoughts
In the courts, thinking 'win,' ignoring loss
I miss my language, I miss my food
I miss my structure, my well breed fools
I miss my support, my clothes and class
But being Captain some of that will last
I will keep my voice, though they don't understand
I will fight for support, from each and every man.
I will work in a democracy, supportive, it's true
I will fight against the real tyrants like you
I will use my power to fight against man
Yet stand beside those who can
Live a real life, but I must confess
I do miss the clothing, the courts, the rest
I can never return, to that 'blessed' life
A time where I was convinced all was right.
I can never go back, I now know the fight.
I can never return or loose sight
It is so different, frustrating and tough
But, dear society, I have had enough
My tune has changed, a gentleman I will be
And through this crew I have found the real me
A lady I once was, blue blood and pure
Now I question if I was ever sure
A Countess of the courts, I thought I'd always be
Now a gentleman pirate stands in front of thee
God's servant and righteous soul
Countess Dame Admiral Captain
Charity Ann Rackham
May our paths cross in ideal light
And faith never lead us astray
May our ships pass peacefully in the night.
I say nothing of the day.
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Now.. Where this came from? As an actor, writer, etc. I will always revisit characters I am still using in order to keep them fresh and growing. As Charity is not a character taken or based on any other existing characters/creations (Although some have made some personality comparisons) and is built from scratch AND even though I don't get to use all levels of Charity's existence and history (keeping things lighter for the kids and marketability) I feel a need to work on all of her levels so that when I perform script (especially at BCRF) I can find what I need in me to keep her alive and as real as the market will let me. I have always dreamed of having a chance to film something (A short, movie, etc.) where The Jade Dragon Crew can show that more 'dramatic side' and history of the story that began this adventure (as well as relationships between the characters and some of their origins) but budget and time will not allow that... Not yet. So I have to find a way to keep her alive. You see.. True actors find in their characters similar traits to themselves and much of what Charity has gone and is going through (trust and love leading to deception and then struggling to find trust and love in a different 'world' without being deceived again... AND holding onto what she thinks is the traits that make her who she is) is similar to some of my struggles. Since I can't afford to film it... Well...
My biggest outlet is my poems. I just write them. Don't think much.. Just write them. This was written this morning as I waited on someone. I was going to memorise script but my mind went into a 'find her' place and there it wrote. So.... Instead of hiding it I shall present it to all of you. If you would like to share it in any way, I ask that you include this post piece as well and a credit. I hope you all like it and I hope my art is shared. Thank you for your energy and thank you for your love.